By Keith Lee
It seems like we just celebrated New Year’s. It’s April already, and you might be wondering, where did all the time go? I’ve noticed during some seasons of life I tend to drift without direction. This in turn makes me tentative and doubt-ridden. That tendency then colors all my experiences, so I don’t enjoy life and am sapped of enthusiasm. If I am not careful, then I find myself drifting for years and sometimes for even a decade.
But praying consistently helps me to break out of this season of spiritual malaise. Praying gives me a sense of purpose that says I am part of something bigger, even though I cannot clearly articulate it. Praying puts vigor in my footsteps and activities. Even though from my perspective things are not working out according to my plans, praying assures me at the end of the day that God’s will is being done through me.
A while back, one of my friends confided that he had a disconcerting dream. In it he found himself on a bridge. There was thick dark fog all around, so he could not see past his nose. The troubling thing was that he did not know where to go. He did not know which way was forward or backward. He felt so helpless that he wanted to give up.
Nevertheless, in this bleakness, he was inclined to go forward. Even though he could not discern his direction, he kept inching forward little by little. Finally he reached the end of the bridge. Then a clear voice spoke to him saying: “Now you have to go back to the other side. Help others to go on this journey. There are many who will need your help.”
My friend’s dream was so relevant that I listened with rapt attention. But the next thing he said rattled me even more: “I think this dream applies to you also.” It has been over ten years, and I’m reminded again of its relevance in my life. Without prayer, we tend to drift, not knowing if we are progressing or dead in the water. St. Paul reminds us to pray through uncertainties without knowing what words to pray. “Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words” (Romans 8:26). Let’s keep praying, so that life does not pass us by and time no longer becomes a blur. Let’s pray to recover the passion, joy, and purpose in our souls.